Forgotten The Rotten.

Owh cheesers and whiskers... I've forgotten today that tomorrow is my duty day. I have an important meeting tomorrow clashing together as well. You know which day I rather go? I want to attend the important meeting over the duty day.

Why? Because I'd feel better if I went there instead of here.

This is a never ending drama problematic solving year. What is this! It ain't a question, it's a statement ya'll!

Oh! Screw it, I'm going to meeting. There are times where sacrifices are needed but thanks to the Heaven and the Earth this is small.

Speaking of sacrifices... it's that time of the year again, goodbye hair. I can't believe this is something I am about to do... again. Am I having doubts? YES.
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I shouldn't be thinking like this.

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Time to get inspirations. Whee... I am not happy, just tired but not of you.

I've spent my coldest night.

Two things I've learnt today. I mean yesterday.

1. You can't run or hide away from mistakes or problems caused by you or not from you.
- You'll face consequences.
- Consequences will kill you.
- So, have the sense of urgency.
- Don't be a fool. Gosh, how can I behave as low as this... darn, I'm getting worse!

2. I suck. My leadership skills sucks. I failed.
- Delegate the job.
- Don't keep it to yourself.
- Why did this happen?
- I'm afraid, why?
- I do not want to make others hate me.
- I know there better ways to order people around.
- It's just that my feelings tend to get the better of me when I'm tired.
- So tired till you start becoming high.
- It's a skill I have yet to master.
- Still a skill that is overpowering me instead of me empowering others.

I forgot. One more thing, I've learnt and making action of it up till today.

3. I don't give up. I persevere.
- Despite failures, I am bound to succeed one day. I just know it.
- It's on the matter of time.
- But time doesn't fix everything, I have to do it!
- Either way, I don't give up.
- Tired is an option but I won't pick that.
- I just don't give up. I refuse to quit right now!

I forgot one more thing. It's something I've come to realise and know since two weeks ago.

4. I love you.
- How did I even realise?
- Oh, I remember.
- How lovely, I love you too.

You read it. Only at ~55mav-Maverick~

Hehe-Ha.

Explain This.

You kids need to learn that there are much more complicated and serious problems and solutions to be thought and figured out. For now, you think this is somekind of world where everything will just fall right in front you. You think everything you want could just appear as long as you say or do a tiny part of it... well you are absolutely wrong.

I was brought in New York, serving as a waiter when later, I got hit by a bus. I spent 3 years in a hospital... you know how I felt? I felt lonely, terrified, dreadful, dissapointed and helpless. I couldn't do anything, I couldn't walk, crawl or even breath properly without proper kits. I could talk but who was there to talk with me? No one. What I did everyday was spent the entire time talking to myself... many people who had recovered completely who came to share the same room with me for that 3 years thought I was crazy, not only the patients, the nurses as well. Many of them just so happen to successfully find reasons to avoid treating me when they are assigned to me. There were times where I had to suffer for a long time due to the absence of assistance from the doctors and nurses. I felt angry at this dang old hospital at first until something gave me a message. From that moment, I was never the same again... I had a new goal in life and that goal was to have a purpose in life and that purpose is to live a meaningful and positive life without failing to say 'Hey, I failed but I succeeded too'.

As the months go by, I found a goal which I believe will set a new path for me. I had decided to write a book about my life. Expecting to live in the hospital or I would call my 2nd home had given me time to think, write, laugh... about the good times and cry about the sad and meaningful times which occured to me when I was a child and guess what? I'm not afraid to say I still am and proud of it. As the calendar sheets were getting torn off more and more, a masterpiece was created and at the midst of time, I was recovering quite well too. I realise it wasn't just because how bad I was injured that affected the time spent for my recovery, it was also my negative thinking all along that was just dragging time. My time. My stories gave me a new chapter in my life which I will prolong till the next day and the day after that and et cetera.

After years in that medical building, I was finally out. Breathing and walking on the areas of the city had never felt so good. Many characteristics of buildings, skyscrappers and even vehicles have changed. I realise I was trapped in the stone age for a long time and I had missed out on so many current events. That didn't bother me though, I went on to follow my purpose. My stories were judged by the man himself, Walt Whitman, globally known author who had brought up poetry to the new generation in a whole new defined way with his book titled 'Poetry for Young People'. He gave a few grins while flipping through my work, I was nervous and just trying to keep hold to myself, the time ticks away as slow as the snails could have moved. It was a moment of my life where this might just give a whole new way towards it. A few hours later, he came personally to me and said 'Son, what you are is something different, I have reviewed many freshmen work and had never come across anything like this. This work of yours isn't good or great at all...' I was already devastated at that time and almost wanted to walk away without thinking... until he added 'It was pure genuity and brilliance that I believe will be a worldwide phenomenon, son, you will go far in life... I only hope you will always pick yourself when you're down'.

Sometime after that, I met a guy named Chuck Brassy. He was borned without arms or legs and he said 'If I fall, how do you think I will be able to get up? Well, it doesn't mater how as long as I try. I will try a 100 times and if I fail a 100 times to get up, I will just keep trying. Because if I stop trying, I will never get back up... isn't that right?' I was touched and inspired by him, it was so meaningful but most importantly, it was the truth.

I became rich and famous. Fame that I could never imagine I would be receiving and the wealth which I could buy anything I want in the world except love. I was alone at that time. I just knew one day if I just stand my ground, I will find love one day. The lady of my dreams is still in search but one thing's for sure... I will never give up.

~Maverick-55mav~

Seattle Bay.

I'm so tired, time to sleep ~ Goodnight and I love you. Hugs and kisses all around... mostly hugs 0.0'

See you soon.

Deep.

I need to study. But I can't. There is just ONE thing that is distracting me right now... it's getting serious and hot (like that oven).

Like the sights of a beauty,
Beneath the surface filled with serenity,
Save me from drowning,
To stop me from frowning,
A clearer view will lead us together,
A question that needs a reaction,
Is the distraction.

I guess I forgot my position :/

I seriously have to learn more about you because you are different. Oh brocolli, I'm stubborn!

Bokola

Wow, I am so not in the mood for anything right now already... I am completely dull now. It's time for me to die. Very, very, very, very, very bad indeed. I don't feel like doing anything now except typing sentences that only I can understand.

Is it time?

No.

Why not?

Because if you do, what will happen to me?

How should I know? I don't care.

How dare you...

Just stop it already. I'm tired of being you.

Me too. You think it's so cool to dance like you?

Oh my, I beh tahan already.

Close shop.

You can hear the waves in underwater caves~ I never thought humans still had the ability to create beautiful and catchy tunes at these times.

This is a decision I will have to make when everything starts to fall... I cannot go on like this anymore. This is not lyrics. It's come from the soul of good chicken soup.

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I'm gonna get lectured by mommy later. Such delight.

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End.

Happiness. Satisfaction.

Today, I woke up at 6.45 a.m and didn't realise I slept through the night unintentionally (Ever get that feeling? I do... (very frequently) because I was lying on the floor. Anyway, I woke up, about to get ready for school until I realise I had forgot to print out notes for my upcoming Biology Project presentation for my group (Oh no!). So, what did I do? Calmly reach to the switch and turn on the computer, of course! By the way, I had to get ready quick, school was about to start in 40 minutes. So I quickly copy pasted all the notes that was needed to be taken note. Quickly set it to print, after faster went to change blah, blah.. the usual protocols.

It was 7.10 a.m, my heart was shivering... I had no where to go. I was in terror, trap in a world filled with propostrous and unacceptable danger which lurks beneath my skin. Okay.. moving on, anyways, yeah... I printed them out... and... yes.. I did it, yay for me! At this time, it was about 7.20 a.m and that means... time to leave for school. So I reached to school, at 7.25 a.m on the dot. Walked to my class line for assembly and let me tell you something, e-v-e-r-y-t-i-m-e as I walk down the assembly area to the form 4 lines, I have the feeling of where everyone (okay, not everyone, MOST of them) are like staring me down, I know it sounds a little 'perasan'? (What is perasan in English anyway?) But it's true, I just hope what I'm feeling is fictional.

Schooling hours were in session. At the start, Thien Yik called me to go to the library and I was thinking 'oh, there must be some work to do until he has to call me to help too' BUT what actually happened was... as we were walking to the library, I CONSTANTLY asked him what were there to do... and he ARROGANTLY ignored me. Forgive me but this is exactly why you are not the best leader in the library society, I've seen you treated others worse like the trainees and now that they are no longer under probation, you are still doing it! They might not have realise that yet or maybe they do but probably just afraid to confront you. Same goes to you, Daryl. I am sorry, but you guys have been getting worse as the years go by. I know how it's like having to be close as in VERY close to your 'guider' or in your case 'teacher', you have priviledges but there is always one thing you must keep in mind and that is to be humble. I'm not trying to create a reckous fire nor having grudges among anyone... it's just that what have to be said, have been done so. I rest my case. As I was saying, so I went to the library and there I was waiting... Oh yeah, at that time, I was having PJ period... it felt terrible missing even a minute of it. Yeah, anyways, as expected... nothing to do. I have no idea why Thien Yik called me so I just went out of the library. Then I stumbled upon Jin Hao outside, had some chats with him... yeah lovely chap. I believe he will be the next head librarian, no joke here. The best I've seen so far... but who am I to judge? o.0 I mean, I am not even the assistant head or secretary or treasurer. I am a total failure, absolutely awful.

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After chatting, I went to go play badminton with Marcus. Then, we felt it would be more fun if it was a 2 on 2 game. So we invited Megan and Zheng Ming to join in the fun. Boy, it was fun. I thought my playing would be a quite bad considering I didn't touch a racquet for a month but it turned out alright, a slight drop in terms of skills but still win-able. Yeah, as usual, I was jumping and running everywhere to hit the shuttle, do whatever it takes to hit it. Sooner or later, my energy was draining but I kept playing till the end. At some point later, I realise I was playing more than an hour without resting, I could felt the tiredness and the loss of concentration but at least I still could hit the shuttle with power. And here's a secret... at this time, I sensed THREE prefects who I believe to be girls were watching how I played. No joke. I also believe that they LAUGHED when I missed. I couldn't play well anymore, I was totally drained out of energy.

Anyway, after about an hour and 15 minutes of non stop action, we stopped and rested. While the rest were just about to head down to play some b-ball. I would've join them but I was exhausted to the max. After resting, I went to the library. Saw Madame Tan in there giving orders to Jin Hao about moving some stuff in the library, I wasn't in my uniform nor my librarian polo shirt so... To avoid being scolded since she is sort of the dicipline teacher, I ran away and changed. After changing, Timothy and I headed to the gent's restroom. In front of the door, there was a piece of paper. It said 'Out Of Order'. And at its knob there was a plastic bottle stuck to it, which gave a curiosity to both of us. The point of the bottle was to lock the door mechanically. So disobeyed the sign and took out the bottle and opened the door. To our surprise, there was a boy locked inside. L.O.L. Well, at least we saved the guy's life. Anyway, then we went back to class and played some card games then I was called to go to the library. I went there, did a little work and ended up sitting and watching. Anyway, as a result, I missed my recess :(

I walked to the Media Room, I thought there were humans there who needed my help but turns out it was deserted. So I sat in that room alone and well... just sat there and sleep really. Okay, not sleep but think! I was thinking... yeah... thinking.. about... stuff that has been bothering me lately. I will go further more on that later. (Yeah, right...). After 5 minutes, I walked out... everyone was watching some movie... I got bored so I went back to class. Seeing only Megan there doing her work. I sat down and took out Zi Yang's playing cards and wanted to prepare a magic trick for the next victim who sees me. But THEN, suddenly a PREFECT who is a girl, was WALKING back to her class and she SAW me and was probably thinking, 'Oh, how sad... he is sitting there all alone with a deck of cards with no friends to play with'. May I make my statement that I just came back to class a few minutes ago and no one was there. They were playing Monopoly at the other class and I didn't know. Besides, you can't let anyone see how you prepare your tricks before performing it. By the way, I did see you and I observed you everytime you pass by like a hawk preying on its prey and may I say, you do observe me a lot... I can see you glancing at me almost everytime and the fact that you made your friends do it too. Well, not all 3 of them... only one of them. Which I don't mind, really but I will soon. 0.0 Watch out... joking :) Not. Yes. Probably. Maybe. What? For those who do not know me well enough, I am observant, I just don't want you to know, that's all but now that I've said it then you know. So... yes... you know... I got nothing to say now. :X

Anyway, then came U-Jo, I played the card game 'Speed' with him... he was winning at first.. until the last round which changes everything in the game if you lose that particular round. It's like a deflector where whatever bad stuff that has happened to you, you can give it to your opponent. Yeah, so I fortunately won that round and we continued playing until he got tired and gave up his game to Sze Yi. In the end, I won! =D Then she wasn't satisfied, so she challenged me to another round and then I won again! Score : 2-0 Then she challenged me again but this time she won. Give face.. give face.. Then she wasn't happy enough yet, so again. This time I won. Score 3-1 Then she challenged me again and she won that round. So final score 3-2, I still win! But it just shows that girls... how competitive they are!

Anyway, this post is seriously getting long. But I've had a longer post than this. You can take a break again, if you want to. Let's speed things up a little, alright? Okay, so after speed, then came 'Cho Tai Ti', another card game. Which I didn't participate in. Too tired. So I went to the library and there was nothing to do.. So I left. Again. Came back to class, watched them play. Then got ready to go home early. School was suppose to end at 2.30 p.m for my class today but I left at 1.50 p.m. Shhh... Zi Yang, Jordan, Jian Arn and I left early. Haha. While teacher was in class somemore. We sneakly carried our bags and put it outside the class. Then we quietly walk pass the class without letting teacher see us. There we go, pretended to be form 3s and exited the school! Whee! I mean, there is no absolute point to stay in school for another extra 40 minutes when we don't have anything to do. Anyway, walked back.. blah blah... went for my meeting.. came back at 7.30 p.m. And the rest are history! Well, they are all history but yes... it's good history.

So, are you ready? Tell me when you are ready.

I'll see you soon.